Life Before Weight Watchers

My parent's were on at me to get a stomach bypass. They were worried that I would have a heart attack or stroke and my kid's would grow up without a mother. To be really honest, so was I!!

With Troy away a lot in the fishing season I would sometimes worry that something would happen to me overnight and I wouldn't wake up. I was scared for my kids that they wouldn't know what to do if this did happen. In the winter my asthma would start, especially at night when I went to bed. I assume it was because all my fat around my tummy was pushing up against my lungs. Sometimes I would wake in the night coughing and not being able to breathe. Last year was a wake up call and I didn't want to go through that again. I used to get diahaorra 3 or 4 times a week and even thought I might have Bowel Cancer. I was sick quite often with repeated throat and ear infections and looking after the kid's by myself most of the time I couldn't afford to be like this. I am all they have in the fishing season and it was not much fun for them if I am sick all the time.

I had become really lazy, doing basic housework had become a major effort. I would often fall asleep on the couch in the afternoon with no energy. I couldn't be bothered cooking decent meals for us, so we spent a lot of time at the drive through at McDonald's. Even playing games with the kids was an effort. A lot of the time I would tell them I'm too tired. If we had a hot day (which luckily, wasn't that often down here) I would sit inside because I couldn't handle the heat, instead of playing outside with the kid's. Being 'fat' stopped me from doing so much with my kid's. I would alway's be scared that I would fall over and not be able to get back up.

I have always worn skirts as my 'tree trunk' legs looked too revolting in pants. I remember Kyle having a school trip to the beach. I didn't go as it was a really windy day and I knew I would be the only parent wearing a skirt, so made some excuse about why I couldn't go. My kid's deserve a much better life than this. They need a mother who can do everything with them, not someone who just sits back and watches because she's too fat to move.

Even Christmas time had become boring for them. Everyone we knew goes away at this time of year and the last couple of years we have stayed home because I was too fat to do anything. This year is going to be totally different. With 50kg's down I am looking forward to having our best holiday ever!!